Hazrat Amman Jan - An Inspiration for Us All — Page 53
53 Hadrat Nawwab Mubaraka Begum ra reminisce d that the Promised Messiah as would specially order jasmine oil for his wife. On the third day after his demise , Hadrat Amman Jan ra gave her perfume box to her daughter. Then during her " ‘ iddat " 41 she wore neither perfume nor jewellery, but only clean , white clothes. She poignantly re collects that after this period was over, Hadrat Amman Jan ra then put on her normal attire, jewellery and perfume again. Her dress was now normal but the grief and pain was still heartbreakingly apparent on her face. Although her self - control was remarkable, this pain could not be hidden. She did not lament, cry or wail in public, but the outpouring of her anguish became apparent during the weeping of her Salat prayers. She visited " Bahishti Maqbarah " (the Heavenly Graveyard) daily. Hadrat Nawwab M ubaraka Begum ra relates that it was difficult to watch her mother ’ s private weeping there. The wife of Ghulam Nabi Misri Sahib relates how Hadrat Amman Jan ra dealt with the profound grief of losing the Promised Messiah as. She writes that Hadrat Amman Jan ra never lost control of her composure, even when grief stricken or reminded of her loss. She recalls she once related a dream to Hadrat Amman Jan ra of how she had seen the Promised Messiah as and Hadrat Amman Jan ra sitting together in a room of N awwab Sahib ’ s. In the dream she got the impression that Hudur had to leave soon and so children were rapidly coming to the room to bid “Salam” to Hudur. The narrator then requested Hadrat Amman Jan ra to also introduce her to Hudur at which point she awoke from the dream. Upon hearing the dream, Hadrat Amman Jan ’ s ra eyes filled with tears. Yet at these points of intense grief, Hadrat Amman Jan ra did not loudly wail or utter complaints. She displayed the fortitude of 41 The Islamic term for the 4 months and 10 days ’ period of waiting experienced by a widow.