Hazrat Amman Jan - An Inspiration for Us All — Page 52
52 Thus , despite her best efforts, Hadrat Amman Jan ra could not thwart the prayers and desires of a prophet on this one occasion, the only time that she prayed in contradiction to her husband. The devotion Hadrat Amman Jan ra felt for the Promised Messiah as was apparent to those close to her. Hadrat Nawwab Mubaraka Begum ra has reflected that after his death, although Hadrat Amman Jan ra showed incredible fortitude and patience and continued to put the needs of others first, she still suffered an inner restlessness and anxiety. She seemed to be only partly present in this life. Although she remained composed because of her great fortitude and compassion for others, executing all her duties responsibly, she now seemed to be like one on a journey. It was as if she was a traveller, without the satisfaction of reaching his final destination. She appeared to fulfil jobs as if to co mplete them before some final disembarkment. Hadrat Nawwab Mubaraka Begum ra relates that whenever they experienced the joy of a new birth in the family, she perceived how it was always tinged with sadness for Hadrat Amman Jan ra. This was due to the Promised Messiah's as absence on the happy occasion. To her daughter, Hadrat Amman Jan ra would often lovingly relate the soft words of her father concerning her. The Promised Messiah as would always listen to Hadrat Nawwab Mubaraka Begum 's ra wishes with full attention and earnestness. He would stop Hadrat Amman Jan ra from reprimanding her (although Hadrat Amman Jan ra was never exceedingly harsh) reminding her that , "Daughters are only guests in our houses for a few days. What will her m emories be of here when she leaves ? (ie when she is married), so listen to her. "