A Sign of Allah - Chaudhry Muhammad Zafrulla Khan — Page 27
A Sign of Allah 27 ‘since immediate martyrdom is a blessing that is not granted to everyone, am I simply presenting myself so that I can attain the status of a martyr as soon as I arrive and escape the worries of the world? Or do I, in fact, have within me the determination to live out a long period of time and sacrifice each day in the way of Allah and not turn away from this daily martyrdom?’ Dearest H u du r, I am weak, lazy, and desire comfort, but after reflection, my conscience tells me that not for the sake of showing off, not for the hope of immediate martyrdom, and not for the sake of escaping the worries of the world, but for the sake of availing an opportunity to repent for my sins, to collect for myself a spiritual treasure for my hereaf - ter, and to seek the pleasure of Allah the Almighty, I present myself for this service. If Allah the Almighty accepts this service from a worthless and sinful per - son like me, and enables me to spend the remaining days of my life seeking His pleasure, then I seek no greater blessing or happiness than that. H u du r, I am not an essayist, and in the presence of H u du r, neither speech proves helpful nor the pen. Just as a poet has so aptly composed: وہ وت وہ دح ےب وشق رتامجن زابین ےب ی ہ ی رقت�ی ر�ی ک ہ � ٓایت راکم ا ی � ش ی پ وران� Being passionate about something requires actions and not words;