The Mirror of the Excellences of Islam — Page 545
544 Ā'ĪNA-E-KAMĀLĀT-E-ISLĀM―DĀFI UL-WASĀWIS Furthermore, I saw that the Holy Prophet sas had affection for me so he approved of my thoughts and treated me with compassion. While His staff is] و يشير الى أن عُكّازته معى وهو من الناصري gesturing to me he said placed alongside mine, and he is among my helpers']. In another vision, I saw myself as God and I firmly believed that I was Him. Then, I did not have any will nor any thought, nor any action of my own accord. It seemed as if I was a broken pot; rather, I became like something which had been hidden underneath an armpit by some- thing else and absorbed by it, to the point that the hidden thing pos- sessed no characteristics nor smell of its own. It was completely lost in the other. What I meant by 'as God' is that the reflection returned to its Source and disappeared in It, as lovers of Allah often go through such experiences. The following is the detail of what has been said above. sys- When Allah made His mind to bestow something from His tem of good, He made me the centre to manifest His will, knowledge, organs, Oneness, and Uniqueness so that His will and promises might be fulfilled as this practice of Allah always manifests itself concerning the righteous, virtuous, and the truthful. I saw that His soul had sur- rounded me and dominated my body and it absorbed me in Itself, to the point where not even an iota of me remained and my inner self completely disappeared. And when I looked towards my body, I found that my organs, eyes, ears, and my tongue had become His organs, His eyes, His ears, and His tongue. Thus, my Lord took and absorbed me completely to the point where I became one with Him. I found His power and His will rush through my soul and His Divinity overflowing from my soul. Allah had overwhelmed my heart. The kingdom of this powerful God had deeply been ingrained in my heart. Not I nor my will, nor my desires-none of them-existed. The structure of my being had been completely abol- ished whereas only the structure of the Lord of the worlds was visible. The remains of my being disappeared and my ego was finished; more- over, not even an iota of my inner self remained. The Divine Essence dominated me; I conceived it to be a complete dominance. I was lost