Malfuzat - Volume VIII — Page 164
164 MALFŪZĀT - ENGLISH TRANSLATION OF URDU VOLUME 8 said one day, 'Bear witness, from this day on, I have given up all discussions. From now on, there will be nothing except obei- sance until death. And then I saw that after that day until death, this remained his state of being, and there was absolutely nothing except resig- nation and obeisance. I have noticed that those who have heard his sermons know that there was nothing in them except my particulars and remembrance. However, at times I heard that some people did not appreciate this practice to some extent. Nevertheless, he did not wish to speak about anything other than that. At this point, I [the Editor of al-Hakam] submitted that the late Maulawi Şahib used to say that, in his view, those speeches and dis- courses which do not mention the truth of the Promised Messiah as are harām [forbidden]. After hearing these words, I noticed tears had welled up in the eyes of the Promised Messiahas. However, the self-control and self-restraint of such [godly] people is unparalleled, so he exemplified a paragon of composure, but his face had become red, and one could see a special kind of radiance in it. Then, in relation to this memory, the Promised Messiahas said: His elder wife had seen a vision that Maulawi Şahib said, 'I have become an Ahmadi. ' This also shows that he had annihilated himself in my love. Very well-may Allah the Exalted forgive him. Amin, again Amin!