First Grain of Sand — Page 88
72 FIRST GRAIN OF SAND went on, I abandoned even this wish and turned my full attention towards God Almighty and prayed: O God! I truthfully and wholeheartedly hand my life over to You. I relinquish all my own desires and turn to You. O God! Please spread the Ahmadiyya Movement through- out this land, and shine Your light upon their faces and hearts. And please do with me whatever You know is best. I then spoke with Muhammad Hussain—the first Ahmadi con- vert in prison who was originally from Bukhara—and said to him: My brother, I ask you in the name of God to do something for me. No matter how much you may need to walk on foot, how hungry you may need to be, or even how long it may take you, find a way to reach Qadian and deliver a message to my beloved leader, Hazrat Khalifatul-Masih. Please tell him that the man who loves him dearly, who he has a close relationship with and who he sent to Bukhara with Mohammad Amin Khan, has been executed in the land where he was sent after being held captive in a Russian jail. And tell him that I did not feel any panic or cowardice in the face of my death; rather, how I remained a coura- geous believer and follower of the courageous Messiahas. And tell him that until my last breath, I held firm that God exists, the perfect manifestation of Whom was revealed to the Prophet Muhammadas 1,300 years ago and has reap- peared in the person of Mirza Ghulam Ahmadas. And tell him that I always held firm to the desire in my heart for