First Grain of Sand — Page 170
FIRST GRAIN OF SAND 154 such a person cannot be a spy who boldly shakes his angry finger against their beloved leader right in front of them. I remember very clearly that when I said those words while pointing to the large portrait of Lenin, there was absolutely no fear in any corner of my heart. Rather, the following words of my dear and beloved master remained etched in every corner of my heart: اس زندگی سے موت ہی بہتر ہے، اے خدا جس میں کہ تیرا نام چھپانا پڑے ہمیں Death itself is better than this life—O Lord!— in which concealing Your name we be compelled. پھیلائیں گے صداقت اسلام کچھ بھی ہو جائیں گے ہم جہاں بھی کے جانا پڑے ہمیں We will spread the truth of Islam, no matter what happens. We will go wheresoever we be compelled. پروا نہیں جو ہاتھ سے اپنے ہی اپنا آپ حرفِ غلط کی طرح مٹانا پڑے ہمیں It matters not that our own selves by our own very hands- as if words misspelled-be erased should we be compelled. محمود کر کے چھوڑیں گے ہم حق کو آشکار روئے زمین کو خواہ ہلانا پڑے ہمیں O Mahmood, we will leave the Truth openly proclaimed, the entire earth be shaken should we be compelled. I know myself well and appreciate that I am a weak and worth- less individual. So how did I have the courage and bravery to han- dle such a dangerous situation? The answer is that this is purely the blessing of God. This is the result of the moral training and