First Grain of Sand — Page 109
PRODUCING FRAUDULENT EVIDENCE 93 after they used the plough for an hour or so, they would then look through the ventilation window as if to check if I was still awake. And if I was still awake, they would resume operating the loud plough. To warn the prisoners and to stop the soldiers, I would loudly yell in Russian that I am not sleeping but am watching them. I also would shout out that I know why they have started to plough the fields and understand their intentions. I did notice there were some soldiers and officers who witnessed my plight and subsequently did not support these plots against me, but they could not support me publicly because they were greatly outnum- bered, and it would put them in danger as well. When some of the commanding sergeants and their senior officials would come to my cell or pass by, I could see from their furious expressions that they were eager for my death. At times I would mention the names of certain soldiers and officers whom I considered my adversaries, noting how harshly they treated me. Since all the government offices were located above the prison cells, everyone was aware of my situation. When they saw that I slept very little and was awake a lot, they started adding cocaine in my bread and water, which I felt. Also, certain soldiers gestured to me not to eat this bread. Sometimes I also heard some soldiers outside my room, saying to another, Не дай ему хорошую вода' [pronounced Ne day yemu khoroshuyu vada), meaning, ‘Don't give him good water. From this I realized that they intended to lace my water and bread with cocaine before giving it to me. As a result, I refrained from eat- ing or drinking water for a long time, as I knew it would be too dangerous. Eventually, when the thirst became unbearable, I would yell