Life of the Promised Messiah — Page 29
29 Hazrat Maulvi Abdul-Karim words, I later sought forgiveness from God continu- ously for a very long time. I offered voluntary Prayers with great humility and lowliness, and gave alms as well; for I felt that the sternness I had shown to my wife was due to some unconscious weakness in my obedi- ence to God Almighty. ” When I heard these words and reflected over my own state, my understanding and my actions, I felt such shame and remorse that only God can know. At that moment, these words penetrated my soul like an iron stake. I realised that such extraordinary virtue, fear of God and consideration for the most intricate aspects of righteousness cannot be possessed by an ordinary per- son. On the other hand, I and hundreds of others like me, boast that we are adherents of Islam and followers of the Sunnah of the Holy Prophet sa. While there is no doubt that we are neither intentionally insolent, nor those who arrogantly transgress the limits set by Allah, why are we devoid—or at least weak due to other ail- ments—in this spiritual power and sharp sense? We feel that the height of our good fortune and righteous- ness is merely in abstaining from the cardinal sins and vices; except for the most obvious and manifest sins, we do not lend our attention to the finer, more discrete forms of sin. However, such a condition can only be developed with telescopic vision, with complete faith, with complete insight, with complete righteousness—