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Fazle Umar 36 tomed to ponder over all matters big or small and to chew over them in his mind. As an example two instances are prestented here. Firstly, he says: “In my childhood I heard an objection raised by the Hindu Aryas that God was unable to create anything. He depends upon a supply of soul and matter to create anything. I was in the habit of pondering over such statements that went against logic and reason. I remember it well how one night I was sat leaning against a wall reflecting on the stars. I started to wonder if there was anything beyond the stars. I thought if there was nothing then space is impossible. And if one were to suppose there was something more beyond them then there must be something beyond that also. After pondering I began to see that man could not even solve the riddle of what is observable. This question has only two outcomes and both are impossible. ” 17 On another occasion Hadhrat Sahibzada Sahib [ra] says: “… I did not believe in the Promised Messiah [as] on the grounds that he was my father. When I was nearly eleven years old I made a firm resolution that if in my research, God forbid, I found him to be false, I would run away. However, I appreciated his honesty and my faith kept growing to the point where when he died my faith increased even more. ” 18 In this connection this third incident also points to his mental transformation. He says: “The year 1900 was the time when my attention was drawn to the teachings of Islam. I was then eleven years old. Someone had presented the Promised Messiah with a robe made of a material like chintz. I had asked the Promised Messiah for his robe, for no other reason except that I liked its colour and the design of the material. I had taken it but I could hardly wear it because it was cut too long for my size: if I wore it, it trailed on the ground.