Fazl-e-Umar — Page 91
Fazle Umar 91 However, because of overwhelming love for him, his followers could not imagine that their spiritual father was to scar them with his imminent departure. The time of his death was approaching and the Promised Messiah [as] received revelations about it one of which was (in Arabic): “The time of departure will be faced during a journey. ” 59 As a result of such clear revelations or maybe because of his love and deep spiritual attachment, Hadhrat Sahibzada Mirza Bashiruddin Mahmud Ahmad [ra] became anxious during this trip. He became uneasy, irritable and downhearted as is apparent from the following remarks: “Prior to the death of Huzur [as] , every evening, Malik Mubarak Ali Tajir sahib visited the house where Huzur [as] was staying. And when Huzur [as] started out on his daily outing, he would follow in his horse drawn car- riage. I used to join them while riding my mare that was procured for me by Huzur [as] and conversed with him as I rode along the carriage. But on the night when his illness deepened and he was to die the next day, my heart felt somewhat heavy. I did not ride my mare for this reason. Malik sahib asked me to join him in his carriage. Hence, I sat with him but as I sat my heart fell into deep despair and involuntarily I uttered this line of poem: ‘We will be content with whatever is Your Will. ’ 60 “Malik sahib tried to engage me in conversation. I replied to him now and then between pondering this line of poem. He fell seriously ill during that night and died in the morning. It was a Divine decree, which prepared me before time to cope with this unbearable loss. ” 61 Besides this, when he went to his in-laws’ house to collect his wife, Hadhrat Umme Nasir [ra] , he was overwhelmed with the same fear that the Promised Messiah [as] may pass away in his wife’s absence.