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Fazle Umar 218 I became angry. After all the guesthouse was established for this very purpose. Why do you burden yourself like this and ruin your health. In the end I have to endure the suffering caused by your illness…Her heart condition worsened after 15 January. She was under the care of the doctors, was given blood and her condition improved…As soon as I returned to Qadian her condition wors- ened…she never recovered after that. She was under the constant supervision of two nurses and as this cost 50 to 60 rupees per day, I found that this put extra pressure on her heart…I comforted her and told her she should not worry about this. I was bearing the expense to make her better not to make her worse. ” When her illness became prolonged he began to think about how he was going to meet the growing cost of treatment. Without any hesitation, he decided to sell one of his properties (Darrul Hamd) along with the adjoining orchard. Valuing the property he states: “I thought its present value is very high, however, at the time of sale even if I sell it at a loss, it should definitely go for seventy five thousand rupees. In this way, if I have to spend money on her for one year then I will be able to support her costs at a rate of six thousand rupees per month without any worry. I was ready to sell all my property to keep Maryam alive in some way… At that time I thought that because she can hear and speak, I should exchange a few affec- tionate words with her. However, I decided that she no longer belonged to this world but to the other world. Our connection with her had come to an end. ” (Al-Fazl, 12 July 1944, pp 1–5).