Conditions of Bai'at and Responsibilities of an Ahmadi — Page 267
The Spiritual Revolution 267 have never experienced before. He was our joy and leader. He departed from us after a very short time. As long as we live, we shall not forget our grief that we suffered at his death. On remembering his friendship, we feel very sad, and there is an agony of grief in our heart, and our eyes are tearful. He was full of love and devotion, and was bold enough to express it. ( Fat -h e-Isl a m , pp. 65–66, R uha n i Khaz a’ in , vol. 3, p. 39) Ha d rat Q adi D i a ’-ud-D i n ra wrote that once he said the following to the Promised Messiah as : O my master, I find opposing wishes surging in my heart. On the one hand, I sincerely wish that the world may soon know the truth and the spiritual light of H u du r and people of all nations and faiths should come and be irrigated by this spiri- tual fountain which Allah the Almighty has started. But on the other hand, along with this desire, I become worried thinking that when other people may come to know you and they begin to come here in large numbers, and H u du r would visit their homes as well, then I might lose the nearness of your company and the great pleasure it gives me. H u du r, then I shall lose the opportunity and honour to sit in your company and talk with you as I do now. Such opposing wishes arise in my mind. Q adi Sahib says that the Promised Messiah as smiled on hearing these words. ( A sha b-e-Ahmad , vol. 6, p. 10) Then there is another example of Q adi D i a’ -ud-D i n ra. [His son] Q adi Abdur Ra hi m used to say that once his father mentioned an incident with relish. He said, Once I was performing the ablution ( wu du ) before Prayer when Hadrat H a fi z Ha mid ‘Al i ra , an employee of the Promised Messiah as ,