Barahin-e-Ahmadiyya Part V — Page 392
B AR Ā H Ī N-E-A H M ADIY YA — PART F IV E 392 my humble self is the Promised Messiah who was to come, as I have [faith] in the Holy Quran. This faith is not based merely on good intentions but has been bestowed upon me by the light of revelation from God which shines on me like the sun. How can I expel from my heart the certainty which has been raised to the utmost level by the continuous display of extraor- dinary Signs, unequivocal knowledge, and the daily experience of clear and unquestionable converse with God? Shall I reject the bounty of understanding and true knowledge which has been bestowed upon me? Or should I turn away from the heavenly Signs that are shown to me? Or should I disobey the commandment of my Lord and Master? What should I do? I consider death to be a thousand times preferable than turning away from Him who has revealed Himself to me in all His beauty and grace. How long will this worldly life last; and what fidelity can I expect from the people of the world, for the sake of whom I should aban- don the Beloved Friend? I know well that my opponents rely only on a moth-eaten crust and they desire that I too should adopt it and should give up the kernel. They try to intimidate and threaten me but, I swear by that Dear One whom I have recognized, that I attach no weight to their threats. I would prefer sorrow in His company to the joy in the company of another. I would prefer death in His company to a long life by abandoning Him. Just as you cannot say that it is night when you have seen the day, in the same way I cannot consider the light that has been shown to me to be darkness. When you are not prepared to renounce your doctrines which are a collection of doubts and superstitions, how can I leave the path upon which I perceive that a thousand suns are shining? Am I insane or mad that I should not accept the truth even when God Almighty has exhib- ited it to me with evident Signs? I call God Almighty to witness that thousands of Signs have been displayed to me for my satisfaction, some of which I have communicated to others and some of which I have not communicated to anyone. I find that these Signs are from God