Arba'in — Page 179
Number Four 179 for my ultimate outcome. Now all the sin of the filthy abuse that the public has also hurled upon me is a burden upon the necks of the maulaw i s. It is a pity that these people do not even make use of their intuitive perception. I am a person who is always ill and those two yellow sheets that are mentioned in the a ha d i th 1 —that the Messiah will descend covered in these two sheets—those two sheets accompany me always and their interpretation, according to the science of interpretation of dreams, is that of two illnesses. Thus, there is one sheet on my upper body and points to my cycli- cal chronic headaches, vertigo, and insomnia and heart palpita- tions. The second sheet which is over my lower body, signifies dia- betes which I have been suffering from for a very long time. Often, day and night, I have to pass urine hundreds of times, and I suffer constantly from all the infirmities of health associ- ated with excessive urination. Sometimes my health is so poor that when I climb the stairs to go up for Prayer, I do not hold out the hope—given my apparent state—that I will live long enough to place my foot from one step of the stairs to the next. Now, the individual whose life is in such a predicament that he faces the likelihood of death every day, and examples of the fate of patients suffering such ailments can also be seen, how can he dare to forge lies about God while living with such a dangerous condition? And relying on what state of ‘good health’ does he say that his lifespan will be eighty years while medical research considers him 1. S a hih Muslim, Kit a b al-Fitan wa-Ashr at us-S a‘ ah, B a b Dhikr ad-Dajj a l wa S ifatihi wa-m a ma‘ahu, Hadith 7373 [Publisher]